The time has come..

It's been too long. I need to do something about my weight ASAP! I have been saying this for about 15 years, and have done every diet imaginable two or three times over, I always lose a little weight, say 20 pounds or so, then I go back to my old ways and gain it all back, plus more. Tired of it. No more!!

I have decided to start the Atkins diet. I know it's probably not the most healthy or conscious choice but it works, and it works fast. I have a lot of events coming up over the next few months that I am not looking forward to attending because of my weight. If I can use Atkins as a jump start and lose 30 pounds on it, then I will transition into a more healthy and permanent lifestyle.

I'm not sure if I want to set any goals yet. But I am going to use "milestones." I have a party to attend on September 6th. I would love to be at least 7 pounds lighter by ten. That gives me 2 weeks. On Atkins, I believe it is doable.

I need to do this. I have become depressed and very anti social lately because of this. I don't want to go out with my friends or family, I don't want to be seen. I don't want people to see me and think, "Wow, shes gained weight" (which I have). I want people to see me and be like, "Wow, she looks great!!" Not that I am doing this for other people, I am 100% doing this for myself, but after hearing negative things about your weight for most of your life, it would be nice to hear something positive for a change!

I don't know where theis blog will end up or what direction it will go in, but I figure I need an outlet, somewhere I can come to and release my thoughts and goals. Somewhere I can stay motivated. Somewhere for support.

I already had my morning coffee and an egg today, but I weighed myself anyway and I am 285.6. My highest was 289, so I'm definitely not at my heaviest, but very close. I am hoping I can get down to 279 by Sept 6th. First milestone!